Friday, September 10, 2004
my lips are cracking! lol.. *goes hysterical and gulps down a mouthfuls of water~* -.-" like that's gonna help much.. =p~
anyways. last night i went out with my mum to my tution cher's house for a while.. well.. my mum cancelled cell at our place. so im like
really sorry to cordellia and everyone in the cell. i thought my mum would be more understanding. but ahh well.. it's kinda temporary.. *i feel so xtra.* =( -grumbles- i'm depriveddd.
hmm.. and when that happened.. my mum was like "It's not that you should not put God first.. But studies are more important." hey.. hello.. so contradicting! lol.. -.-" priorities right. yea whatever.. fine.. then.. she goes to say.. this week is a very crucial week cos it's the only time for O level preperation. zz! AND THEN. it's not like ur mid year results were fantastic.. that does it.. *a stab into my heart.* ouch! zz.. haiis.. i know i know.. then.. it's better if u get into a jc for the first 3 months.. *o.O.. who doesn't want to right..* anyway.. i just felt myself boiling inside.. so much to rebuke. =x *i'm rebellious ? nah..* but so much i wanna explain.. then i felt guilty. what if i did not meet my expectations.. it's my own doing.. it was then and there i felt the pressure cos my mum told me about how slack my brothers were.. and how i should be the outstanding one.. hai... i really dunnooo. am i gonna make it ? if i don't.. i'll be letting those people around me down. just like a repeat of mid year. but it's too late.. somehow thats what i feel.. i wanna start all over in jc. how i wish i could buy insurance for studies..
well.. gtg now.. bte fir songs are quite unique. lol.. ^^ yay~
madness~
jAn.[x]`~ *heartt felt words. ; at 1:49 PM
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